Hugging

This morning when I woke up I woke Retardo with my tears. It was a long convoluted dream, and I was going places, always going from one place to the next and at the end of the dream we arrived in this place and Everyone was there. Everyone, all sitting out in a long oval of lawn chairs, just waiting for us to arrive. And I saw my friend Droolie standing all the way down at one end and she had a lavender blanket over one shoulder and I knew there was a baby under it and ran all the way down and friends were heckling me because I didn't stop and say hello, and when I got down there I got to hug her and it was just her, there was no baby I could feel but the hug was so real and perfect and exactly what I needed and when we were done, I looked to my right and there was my Grandpa sitting in a chair and he was so whole so Not-Broken-Anymore and he said 'Come here Holly-Dolly,' and I came to him and he hugged me and it was such a good  good good hug.

Mandala Flower

Tuesday Treat

God Says Yes To Me by Kaylin Haught

I asked God if it was okay to be melodramatic
and she said yes
I asked her if it was okay to be short
and she said it sure is
I asked her if I could wear nail polish
or not wear nail polish
and she said honey
she calls me that sometimes
she said you can do just exactly
what you want to
Thanks God I said
And is it even okay if I don't paragraph
my letters
Sweetcakes God said
who knows where she picked that up
what I'm telling you is
Yes Yes Yes

Definite Life Goals

• Be a good cat-mama for Artie & Madeline
• Be able to assist our parents to live a better life
• Be an awesome partner/wife for Retardo
• Be debt-free by the time our as yet unmade child graduates high school
• Be more confident/spend less time hustling for approval
• Continue making a large portion of my clothing
• Do work that improves other people's lives
• Explore my spirituality & feel alive in my life
• Feel valued and supported in my work life
• Give more--work up to tithing 5% each year
• Go on one 10+ day and three 3+ day trips each year
• Have a monthly party that won't break our budget
• Have an amazing garden with tons of edibles
• Have and raise a child - be an awesome mama
• Have our own house with a good wishhome rating
• Know conversational Korean
• Live an earth-friendly sustainable lifestyle
• Love & support my extended family and friends
• Make art every day
• Make time each week for playing, dancing, and singing
• Live with less--simplify the un-necessities